My New Baby....

It's been awhile since I've wrote. A lot has happened since my last post. Kyle's great grandma Bol was released from the nursing home after being in there since December. Not much than a week later she was admitted to the hospital. We were called up by Kyle's dad, John, a few days later to say our goodbyes. She was ready to go and didn't want to live her life being taken care of and not being able to do anything. She lasted in the hospital a week and died on Valentine's Day. As hard as it is to say goodbye, we were given the luxury of being able to tell her what we wanted to and have as much time as possible to prepare for what seemed like the unevitable. She was very much at peace with what was happening and went peacefully. We had her showing last night and her funeral this morning. It was very emotional. I hate funerals. Regardless of how well I know the person I am always in tears....I was reminded how hard it is when you truly know and love the person dearly. Her birthday was this past Tuesday-she would have been 93.

Turning this into a positive note, Grandma Bol shares a birthday with one of boys, Zeke. He turned a year old on Tuesday. I can't believe how fast time goes and how big he is getting. He changes more and more everyday. He is becoming quite the cuttlebug with Kyle and I. He will now come lay his head on our lap and is giving more than just one kiss. He's such a sweetheart and brings such joy to my life. I don't know what I'd do without him.

Kyle and I took the boys to Armstrong Park for a walk today. We left them off their leashes and just let them run around. They loved it! Zeke just loves going and sniffing around and Tucker loves playing in the snow. We never thought we'd be able to leave Zeke off a leash and walk with us like we can with Tucker, but he is proving us wrong everyday.

I finally convinced Kyle to let me get an SUV in preparation for starting a family. Saturday we traded in his Honda for a 2009 Buick Enclave. I did not know much about these cars before test driving it on Saturday, but they are amazing! I am in love with it and could not be happier. I was finally able to purchase my own first car. It has plenty of room to put the boys in the back and room for two car seats in the future.....if we need them. We won't be needing them anytime soon though-I'm not pregnant...yet! =)

Brandon and Tonia found out last week that they are having a boy! I am so happy for them. The pressure is definitely on now when the time comes for Kyle and I to have a child to have a boy. Brandon & Tonia, Jessica & Phil are having boys. Kyle wants a boy so bad that he's completely convinced we'll have nothing but girls. I'm sure he'll be happy with whatever as long as it's healthy, but he definitely is hoping for a boy to hang out with his brother's son. Tonia is finally starting to show...finally after 5 months! Jessica on the other hand is due in a week. She's definitely 9 months pregnant and is ready for baby Phillip to be here. At least for now.

Jackie came back a few weeks ago and I was able to hang out with her and her mom. My mom and I went with them to see the movie Dear John. SOOOO good! It was nice to see them. I went over to her parents house afterwards and helped her with her Save the Dates. Her wedding is coming up so quickly. It's so nice to sit in the back seat on this one and provide help and guidance whenever she needs it and not have to stress about everything. I've even started buying a few things for the bachelorette party! I can't wait to start planning and helping out more as the wedding gets closer.

And finally, to try and get my mind off all the stress at work, I went out with some of the girls last Friday for dinner at Red Seven (very good restaurant by the way) and to see Valentine's Day (the movie). I had a blast and it was exactly what I needed as each week at work brings about a new concern and stress about whether or not I'll have a job. I'm just trying to not let it consume my life and worry about it too much. We'll just have to wait and see what the future brings. Hopefully I'll have a job for many reasons, but also because we're all thinking about taking a trip to NYC this summer for a few days. I've never been there and would love to go. Kyle said there's no way he's going there. He hates big cities. We'll see if I can make it to the NYC....

It Can't Be Like This for Long...

Well-this past week ranks up there with one, if not THE, Worst week of my life. Last Sunday was a disaster in and of itself that I don't even want to get into. I'll just say that it was emotional, surprising, disappointing, and shocking.....It's definitely something that I'm ready to get behind me and forget about, however it has done nothing but haunt me this whole week. All I can really say is-I'm going to miss my nephew and I love him oh so very much!

As I enter this brand new week and work, I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. The constant fear and stress of not knowing whether I'll have a job or not is really starting to get to me. I will definitely be ready for April 1st since that is the absolute last day that the corporation can let us know if we'll be getting laid off. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that God has a plan and everything will work out okay.

This crappy weather is definitely not helping out. Kyle and I are both ready for the nice, warm summer weather. I think he's finally realized how not fun cold, winter weather is. This is the same guy that used to love snow. As spring nears, we are debating putting our house on the market to see if we can sell it this year and find something with some more space and land for our boys to run. They love going out to either of our parents house to run around. Obviously all of these plans are dependent on my job status. Yet another reason I am praying I get to keep my job. Hopefully things will work out and we'll get what we want.

Kyle's birthday is coming slowly but surely. I am totally up in the air about what to get him. I would like to do something somewhat special since he's going to be the big 25. Any ideas? He's SO ready to use his Christmas presents and go golfing. He's starting to drive me nuts about it. He's like a little kid sometimes. Hopefully a nice day will come along sometime soon so he can go at least once just to curb his appetite until the warm whether really gets here. We'll see....